24:24 But some days later Felix arrived with Drusilla, his wife who was a Jewess, and sent for Paul and heard him speak about faith in Christ Jesus. 25 But as he was discussing righteousness, self-control and the judgment to come, Felix became frightened and said, “Go away for the present, and when I find time I will summon you.” 26 At the same time too, he was hoping that money would be given him by Paul; therefore he also used to send for him quite often and converse with him. 27 But after two years had passed, Felix was succeeded by Porcius Festus, and wishing to do the Jews a favor, Felix left Paul imprisoned.
It's no wonder Felix didn't want to hear about righteousness, self-control, and the coming judgment. I don't know if I should but I actually feel sorry for Felix. He clearly is a man torn between two worlds. His desire to talk to Paul indicates he has a conscience and that God is drawing him. However he was born and raised in a system hostile to faith and the character of Jesus.
He wanted to release Paul but greed and political gain prevented him.
Did you notice the time line?
For two years Felix kept Paul under house arrest. For two years he would have meetings with him. For two years he wrestled between right and wrong. In the end it appears sadly that greed and a desire for political gain won.
Do you know what I see in this? The relentless love of God for a waffling Roman governor. Part of me likes to hope that like the thief on the cross Felix eventually came to his senses and surrendered his broken soul to God but I have serious doubts about that. It's an unwise thing to flirt with God and stay the course of sin and rebellion.
Two years God gave Paul into the company of Felix. Some entire cities only had him for a few months. Some cities never saw or heard Paul preach at all but Felix had him whenever he wanted him for two whole years.
The lesson: Some people rarely if ever get to talk to someone who really knows Jesus. Others get the privilege over and over yet never surrender their hearts to Him. They have a Bible by their bed, parents who love God, the privileges of church family, a devoted pastor, maybe even a church school, mission trips, and all kinds of chances to give themselves to Jesus but they keep flirting.
The Bible says "Today if you hear His voice, do not harden your heart..."
I had a chance once to drive a Ferrari. It belonged to my cousin. I hesitated. I was a little nervous to drive it and I had a full schedule that day already. There would be other days and other opportunities right? In the end I went for it and it was a blast. That Ferrari sits in the back of his garage with a blown engine now and he's not sure he is going to fix it. Had I not seized the opportunity that day I may never have had another.
Besides all that Felix had to live every day torn between who he was and the man he knew he should be. What a miserable way to live. Choose freedom. Choose to be the man God designed you to be. Choose real happiness! Carpe Diem!